I have been thinking some weird stuff for at least last 3 decades and I don’t know, why I still do. For example: When I will be 80 or 90 I will be a super fit and healthy granny. I see myself on the beach in southern Italy and Hawaii swimming and diving. I also have always seen myself as a fast, bright and entrepreneurial granny, investing money in real estates and advising my grandchildren on their business plans. Seriously?! Aha.
I have been many times astonished. ”How come I have these thoughts?”. Recently I catch myself envisioning myself living in a Blue Zone.
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Other things that continuously have been popping up in my head relate to an intrinsic motivation or inspiration
to [live my life intensely,
living on the edge from time to time,
never stopping to learn and develop,
doing all I feel like doing: from any small, funny to giant or even irresponsible things,
chasing and creating opportunities,
helping animals, people, etc.
act on my instincts or heart desires,
fulfilling all my hunger and curiosity,
working on dreams]
for my imaginary FUTURE children????!!!!!!
Yes, I have always been perplexed too.
Continue reading to finding out why.
Even when I was a teenage girl without a boyfriend, I used to have these stories in my head. But I always used to think they come for sure for a reason, and I don’t invent them, there are just there like clouds on the sky. So, why to bother.
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Roughly, five months ago I had a revelation why my motivation to live my life in this INTENSE way relates to my future, imaginary kids 
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Life happens for you and not to you as Byron Katie says.
All, tiny, little, big, sad, fantastic things, difficulties, opportunities, etc. that happened in my life happened for me. They were the reasons to help me to get to the place where I am now and become who I am, and it continues so that I can fulfil the stuff I feel in my heart. And it is the same for you and everybody. Life is never static. Therefore, roads to your life purpose can be pretty long and winding, and there is never one road but myriads of them. You can realise that only if you look backward and join all the dots as Steve Jobs said.
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So the revelation I had about my imaginary kids is as follows:
I had to learn first to take care of myself, love myself, learn to take seriously my dreams, don’t give up on hem, enjoy them, try out, fail and succeed on different areas, understand all the colours of life to become a great parent to myself first, before I become a real one.
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PS. Do you have a similar experience, share with me in comments.